Wednesday, 28 November 2012
In My Face
Just feeling kinda crappy today. Like it's always staring me in the face. Too much time to think I guess. Actually it's not even that...I'm not really sure why I feel so crappy. I've been doing good mostly, but this past whole week has been tough. Constantly trying to feel motivated, to not think about the what if's. Feeling kinda lonely....doesn't help when I am not working. But at the same time it's stressful to think about working. I just can't seem to win. Just feeling sad. Thinking about what it will be like to have to inject myself with meds everyday. I guess it will be staring me in the face even more then. I consider myself pretty strong when dealing with issues, but this is hard...really really hard to have a great attitude all the time. To not feel sad, depressed, lonely.....it just sucks. Just one of those weeks I guess.