Wednesday, 28 November 2012

In My Face

Just feeling kinda crappy today.  Like it's always staring me in the face.  Too much time to think I guess.  Actually it's not even that...I'm not really sure why I feel so crappy.  I've been doing good mostly, but this past whole week has been tough.  Constantly trying to feel motivated, to not think about the what if's.  Feeling kinda lonely....doesn't help when I am not working.  But at the same time it's stressful to think about working.  I just can't seem to win.  Just feeling sad. Thinking about what it will be like to have to inject myself with meds everyday. I guess it will be staring me in the face even more then. I consider myself pretty strong when dealing with issues, but this is hard...really really hard to have a great attitude all the time.  To not feel sad, depressed, just sucks.  Just one of those weeks I guess.

1 comment:

  1. You don't have to have a great attitude all the time!!! It is your right to have "me" days that if you want to scream you can scream. You need to have true emotions, by having days that you can release that anger and frustration, it will give you more positive days as it won't build and build and build.
    It goes with the ohilosophy of people who give them selves 10 minutes each day to cry, punch scream, whatever they need to do. Once the 10 minutes is up, they go back to what they need to do but feel more energized as they have released!