Wednesday 17 October 2012

Just Try

So yesterday was a long day...soccer tournament, hockey and I had to get the house in order cause people were coming over.  The boys helped out for about 10 min before school and then I did some cleanup for about a half hour.  Well once I got to the soccer field and had to walk ALL  the way across (lol) I realized my legs felt like jello and I was quite tired.  I wasn't as dizzy yesterday but I did almost fall down my stairs at home.  I have to realize that I can't turn around quickly...this is the 3rd time I've done that (once was in the stands at the rink) and let's just say "thank goodness for railings"! 

A big accomplishment though, was that I got part of the bathroom cleaned.  I know I said I was gonna do it 2 days ago but I never did get that far.  I say part of it because I still have the shower, but it was a feeling of self accomplishment and quite frankly if people weren't coming over I don't know when I would have attempted it.  I probably would have gotten one of the boys to do it, but they were all gone last night and couldn't help. 

So that was a bit of an epiphany for me, that I am probably feeling a bit sorry for myself and maybe a bit depressed in the sense that because I can't do things as well or as easily as before I won't do them at all....sooo the new goal is to TRY. If I start doing things I will probably feel better, because I feel like I am being useful again.  They can be small goals, like part of a bathroom. Just look at how much even something tiny like that has helped my spirits.

Thank you everyone for your encouragement thus far.  It really has been truly amazing and I've only just begun.... 

6 comments:

  1. Way to go, Charis! I'm trying to figure out how to post a comment. Hope this works. Call me if you get a chance.
    Love Mom

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  2. I agree with your Mom, Way to go Charis!!

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  3. way to go Charis, one day at a time

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  4. Charis anything you feel is ok don't let anyone tell you different !! Don't be hard on yourself ever. Dave's mom had MS so I understand the symptoms but noone can understand how you feel so use your blog to vent your friends nd family are here for you text me anytime !! Remember the longest part of a journey is the beginning the answers and the treatment will be next and hopefully speedy! I found this for you 2 Samuel 22:29-31 lots you are my lamp. You light up my darkness. In your strength I can crush an army; with god I can scale any wall. You can do this and your family is here to help. Lisa xoxo

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  5. Haha that was supposed to be "lord" not lots. Sad when autocorrect changes "lord to lots"

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  6. I wish there was a "like" button like on Facebook. lol Thank you everyone for the kind and encouraging words.

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