I Want

I want my normal back.  I want to be able to not have 5000 things to do.  I want the energy to catch up on everything. Most moms feel this way.  Like there aren't enough hours in the day.  I have hours but not the energy to keep going.  I break after every hour.  Not even consciously anymore.  I just do it cause it feels like I should.  If I don't I will pay for it tomorrow or the next day.  I want to be productive.  I want to be the person who gets it all done.  I wanted to make pies, cut rhubarb, do laundry, and vacuum the living room this afternoon. What I actually did was, start laundry, cook bought pizza and load the dishwasher.  Yay me.