Mind Games

You take two steps forward, only to realize in the morning that you've gone one step back.  One step forward....two steps back.  Back and forth.  Just when I think things are getting better and I might come out of my relapse, I wake up and it's another step backwards.  Still waiting to feel normal.  Thought I was doing really well, but now today my hands are worse agin and I feel a bit off kilter.  Not as bad as before but still a step backwards.  It's been over 2 months now.  Maybe it won't ever get better....