Thinking about last year. What was it like? Very different. This time last year, I was in the middle of a relapse, unable to write, clean, cook (properly). I don't really remember how I got through making Christmas dinner, but I did. We were struggling. With a recent diagnosis, adjusting to one income, (as I wasn't receiving medical leave), paying for meds, and just overall life. It was hard on everyone. Our friends and family showed their outpouring support through many ways. We were in a valley. A valley where the mountain seemed almost unsurmountable. I obviously found this extremely difficult but so did everyone else around me. And that's what I forget sometimes. How does my MS affect those around me? Especially the ones close to me.
Do they forget? Maybe at times but not completely. I see it in my dad especially. We don't see each other often since he lives in Thompson but it's the goodbyes. There is always a moment where he wants to find an answer. To have a reason as to why this is. As a mom I can't really imagine what it's like to be in my parents position. What if it was my kid? What if they got sick? Maybe I can imagine, but it's not a very comforting thought.
Which brings me to Christmas. How you ask? Well Christmas is a time to be thankful and to remember what Christ did for me. How did his mom, Mary, feel watching him be hung from a cross. Yes Christmas is about Jesus' birth but without his birth we wouldn't have the salvation we can have if we choose. I have comfort through Jesus and I hope that during this season you can take time to reflect and see the freedom and peace you can have through Jesus too. And remember the reason for the season.
